I have been thinking a lot lately about all that I have to be thankful for. It’s November, so Thanksgiving is coming and today is Veterans Day so everyone around me has been saying what they are thankful for, which is cool. I think that we should be more thankful/grateful all year round, not just when we remember to be because some month rolls around and the Hallmark companies remind us to be. I am just as guilty of falling into the everyday life trap of being too busy to actually slow down and count my blessings until November myself, but I am going to try to change that.
First, I would like to say thank you to the veterans and active military. It’s because of you that we have all of the rights we have in this great country, so from the bottom of my heart Thank You!
I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful that I have a wonderfully large and loving family. I am thankful that I have a job that I love when so many people are out of work. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, I can pay my bills, and that I can come home to a clean, warm home where a loving wife, daughter and assorted menagerie of pets await me.
But what I am most thankful for is the two birds that grace the branches of my life, L Bird and A Bird. I have always been thankful that they bless my life, but sometimes it is just in the back of my head and it gets buried with stress form the day to day stuff that happens in life. What brought it to the forefront of my brain today was a blog post I read. I routinely read Edenland, I find Eden incredibly interesting and real, she pulls no punches and her blog is very enjoyable. While reading her blog, it led me to The Spohrs Are Multiplying. Her latest post was about her daughter who would have turned 4 today, if she hadn’t passed away, you can read that post here. Reading her post brought me to tears thinking about all of the what ifs that could have happened to A Bird and how we would deal with a devastating loss like that.
I can really identify with some of the things she says. She talks about how she always wanted to kids, but it was low on her priority list and she just assumed it would be easy and how it turned out not to be “easy”. I felt the same way, I have always known that I wanted to have children since I was a teenager. I have always wanted to be a dad and pass my name and my knowledge on to my children, but I always figured when the time came to have kids it would happen and be a piece of cake. I couldn’t have been more wrong, L Bird and I tried for 3 years and went through numerous infertility treatments before we had A Bird. After all of the testing that we went through it turned out that I am 99% the problem of our infertility and that lays a whole lot of internal guilt and stress on me daily, but we were blessed enough to have been given a miracle and got A Bird.
I am eternally grateful to God that He blessed us with A Bird, she is the most amazing little girl I could have ever asked for. L Bird and I would love to have another child and A Bird would love to have a brother or sister, but the chances of that are slim and we would need another miracle. I am grateful that I had the chance for one child when I know that there are people out there struggling with infertility that will never have the chance to have a child, but it doesn’t make the pain or want in our hearts any less.
I am grateful or L Bird too, she keeps me grounded. I know that I rarely speak about feelings or anything that bothers me, but when I do she is always there to listen. We have faced many challenges and struggles but we have faced them together for which I am grateful.
I know this post is a little rambling and jumping from one thing to the next, but it is what has been weighing on my heart. Finally, thank you for reading and offering your comments and advice.
Thank You.
First, I would like to say thank you to the veterans and active military. It’s because of you that we have all of the rights we have in this great country, so from the bottom of my heart Thank You!
I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful that I have a wonderfully large and loving family. I am thankful that I have a job that I love when so many people are out of work. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, I can pay my bills, and that I can come home to a clean, warm home where a loving wife, daughter and assorted menagerie of pets await me.
But what I am most thankful for is the two birds that grace the branches of my life, L Bird and A Bird. I have always been thankful that they bless my life, but sometimes it is just in the back of my head and it gets buried with stress form the day to day stuff that happens in life. What brought it to the forefront of my brain today was a blog post I read. I routinely read Edenland, I find Eden incredibly interesting and real, she pulls no punches and her blog is very enjoyable. While reading her blog, it led me to The Spohrs Are Multiplying. Her latest post was about her daughter who would have turned 4 today, if she hadn’t passed away, you can read that post here. Reading her post brought me to tears thinking about all of the what ifs that could have happened to A Bird and how we would deal with a devastating loss like that.
I can really identify with some of the things she says. She talks about how she always wanted to kids, but it was low on her priority list and she just assumed it would be easy and how it turned out not to be “easy”. I felt the same way, I have always known that I wanted to have children since I was a teenager. I have always wanted to be a dad and pass my name and my knowledge on to my children, but I always figured when the time came to have kids it would happen and be a piece of cake. I couldn’t have been more wrong, L Bird and I tried for 3 years and went through numerous infertility treatments before we had A Bird. After all of the testing that we went through it turned out that I am 99% the problem of our infertility and that lays a whole lot of internal guilt and stress on me daily, but we were blessed enough to have been given a miracle and got A Bird.
I am eternally grateful to God that He blessed us with A Bird, she is the most amazing little girl I could have ever asked for. L Bird and I would love to have another child and A Bird would love to have a brother or sister, but the chances of that are slim and we would need another miracle. I am grateful that I had the chance for one child when I know that there are people out there struggling with infertility that will never have the chance to have a child, but it doesn’t make the pain or want in our hearts any less.
I am grateful or L Bird too, she keeps me grounded. I know that I rarely speak about feelings or anything that bothers me, but when I do she is always there to listen. We have faced many challenges and struggles but we have faced them together for which I am grateful.
I know this post is a little rambling and jumping from one thing to the next, but it is what has been weighing on my heart. Finally, thank you for reading and offering your comments and advice.
Thank You.
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